Monday, August 1, 2016

Muara



Aku tak tahu ke mana
hidup kelak bermuara
ke sungai atau ke laut
satu perhentian sebelum maut
Rasa-rasanya aku ingin dibawanya hanyut
melarut
jatuh di tengah pusaran Semesta
Aku bulir pasir dalam arus-Nya yang rahasia
melayang-layang
mengawang-awang
di mana hilirku berada 

Friday, July 15, 2016

Kembali



Aku bermimpi
Aku berdiri di puncak menara
Menantang langit serta hal abadi lainnya
“Bapa,
Aku ingin ria!
Aku ingin meregang nyawa!”
Ku tak mau seorang pun mencari
Karena aku terlahir sendiri
Mengembara jalanan ratap pedi

Jangan kau tangisi
Kau dan aku hanyalah sementara-sementara tanpa arti
Anggur tak merayakan pergi
Anaknya yang hilang, sungguh akan kembali

Kembali. Kembali.

Ah, sebentar lagi.

Saturday, July 9, 2016

Paus



Inginku berlari
Ke hutan, ke pantai
Berteriak "sepi, kusepi, kusepi!"
Biar saja
Biar mati aku ditelan laut, dimakan paus
Biar jauh-jauh aku dari pedihku
Tak selamanya
Tubuh terkoyak, jiwa terlelap
Di pesisir kelabu
Izinkan aku sekali lagi berseru
Seiku, sepiku, sepiku
Tangisku, tangisku, bukan tangismu.

Monday, May 16, 2016

Tidak Ada Yogyakarta Hari Ini

ilustrasi oleh Sanjaya Faisal


Tidak ada Yogyakarta hari ini
Tidak kemarin, tidak nanti
Di jalanan wajah berlalu lalang
menyelinap dalam gelap bayang
sementara-sementara yang memudar hilang

Bila waktuku tiba 
Semalam saja
aku ingin merengkuh kamu
merayakan kemenangan atas duka, lara, dan air mata
Pedihmu biar larut
Jiwamu biar lebur
satu dengan aku
yang tak tahu kapan detik kembali berdetak

Di sudut-sudut kota rindu
adakah kita kembali bertemu?

Friday, January 22, 2016

A Love Letter to People Who Are Going through A Difficult Time in Their Life.



Hello, I’m Aditya.
You may not know me. Even more, this is the first time we have ever talked, I suppose. Nonetheless, these facts are not that important.

To whom it may concern, I know you are going through a lot of problems in your life.
Maybe, it is your abusive, ignorant partner. Maybe, it is a family matter you choose to keep to yourself. Or maybe, there are several things that make you not confident enough to face the world.

Dejected, depressed—you believe you are not good enough for people you love.
Saddened—you think that you will endure all this pain by yourself.
I feel you. I’ve been going through the phase myself and in fact, I quite understand how you feel.

But I assure you. You are not inferior.
You are attractive enough. You are amazing. You have the capability to go further and change the world.

And you are not alone.
We are here, we will not leave you. ‘We’ could be anything; the bestfriends who always look for you everyday, your loving parents who will listen to your problems, your lover who always has a way to make you laugh, strangers in the street who will smile to you, toys and games that will make you forget of your sadness, books and a cup of a coffee if you are in the mood for a tranquility.

Whenever you are feeling down, whenever you are crying, remember there will always be a moment of happiness later. Still, have you already encountered it? The laughter, the cries of joy, the freedom—these great memories of your life make you want to jump and fly, no?

And let me tell you.
Those moments, those memories, are real.

Hang in there.
I believe in you.
I love you.